Where did all my willpower go?

I want to detox but can't find the willpower. I want to take care of myself but can't find the strength. Probably because I am not doing anything and am bored.

Blueberry-Strawberry smoothie for breakfast
Tropical fruit smoothie, tablespoon of cereal and cashew butter for lunch
handful of chickpeas
lentil loaf, brussel sprouts, avocado for dinner
apple hummus for dessert.

11:00- stomach ache and gas

My stomach should call the cops

Was at an out of town wedding this weekend and abused my body. Had a lot of gluten, alcohol and dairy. Detoxing this week. lots of smoothies and plain rice, beans and veggies.

5am munchies?

What is going on? I woke up at 5 to pee and was super hungry. I didn't really want to eat cause I wanted to go back to sleep but I couldn't concentrate on anything else so I had one of my mini protein bars.

So last night in the afternoon I got a foot cramp and a stomach ache and didn't think I would be hungry for dinner, By 7 I felt better so I had lentil and quinoa and fake cheese.

I was also itchy all afternoon which continued after dinner so I think I am allergic/sensitive to something in the fake cheese since that is new and it was the constant between both meals.

Things I am avoiding
tomato
yeast
casein
sugar (for real)

And I am going to buy a little notebook and food/sleep log and write down physical and emotional reactions throughout the day.

blah.

Hopefully I will enjoy the wedding and not worry about food too much.

Malls Malls Malls

Went to 4 malls in 2 hours. Welcome to suburbia.

Ok so after running around and finding out that Barnes and Noble doesn't carry any of the books I was looking for I came home hungry.

1 small slice of lentil loaf
small salad of carrot, 1 tomato and a handful of spinach
1.5 slice gluten free bread and vegan cheese

stomach still acting weird

Feeling ok so far...

Fell asleep at around 10:45 last night and was up at 7:30am. Most sleep I have gotten in awhile and I got up early. Win.

Wasted a bit of time in bed and then got up at 8:15 feeling hungry so I made:
an antioxident packed smoothie- blueberry, blackberry, red grapes, spinach, and almond milk. (maybe no grapes next time)
a pear with cashew butter
flax cereal with almond milk
coffee

Today I am going to focus on not snacking and what times I eat. So breakfast was an adventure between 8:30-10am

In about a half an hour I am going to do errands and then hopefully some sort of exercising so I probably won't eat until lunch because I feel full now. Full not stuffed or bloated. YAY!! Let's see if I can keep that up.

Yesterday I ate tiny snacks about once an hour in the afternoon. It was weird. And then I ate a ton for dinner because I just wasn't feeling full.  I didn't feel like I was overeating but then I had some cereal and then I lost a little bit of control. This is gonna be tough the next couple of weeks to not eat when I am bored. Maybe I'll fill my time by taking my dog for a walk and trying out new exercise routines. Win for Lily and for Shani. Or I'll go broke by shopping. hmmmm

Gluten Free Heaven

Went food shopping with Netta and found so much good stuff.

Stomach still rebelling so I am yo-yoing between feeling nauseous and hungry.

So...
blueberry, blackberry, apricot smoothie
cup of red grapes
flax cereal, almond milk,  blueberries

laying down and soaking in some what not to wear. a little "america" can be a good thing.

Post flight blech

Am in NY after an 11 hour flight. Stomach isn't great.
The rest of what I ate yesterday/today
quinoa with butternut squash, zucchini and chickpeas
fruit
"granola"
2 fruit/nut bars

am so bored with not know what's wrong and trying to figure it out alone. definitely going to go to the gastroenterologist so that at least I have someone helping to and to talk to. By then it will 2.5 months.

Having coffee and water only today and trying to flush out my stomach. I can't eat until I feel better. Maybe I'll detox until the wedding.